Living in a black and white world
Wednesday, September 2, 2009
what behind my shadow. 3:50 AM 」

honestly I think something is wrong with me
keep feeling down
keep feeling tired
keep getting easily irritated and annoyed
i think i need help
i hope people would stop blaming me for the things i didnt do
just because i'm there to be blamed
i just dont want to say anything
it's not that im fine with it
i just dont want to do anything impulsive to destroy another relationship
i already broke enough
for those who are going to say im emo shit and stuff
i dont give a shit
honestly
yes i know im not the only one with problems
but can at least someone teach me how to cope
and i would stop disturbing everyone
you're expecting me to cope by myself
have you tried being in my shoes?
you havent
so please
dont think you know alot about me
i just wanted to be normal
it's not my fault im born stupid
no matter what i do
i'll never understand what the FUCK is going on through ur mind
i'm really tired of everything
come to think of it, i really dont know why im still holding on to life =.=
not saying that im going to suicide in case some people start tagging hate tags like " MY LIFE IS WORSE" or some shit like that
just ranting
not saying that my problems are the biggest
anyway
looking for listening ears
haha
if there's anyone out there for hire
i'll pay you nothing to be my listening ear :D
hehe
ok bah, thats all guys :D
sorry i didnt post for long
anyway
a few nice songs
here we go again - demi lovato
go search on that
:D
and......... ehhh
i did badly for my prelims
so ya
hope i can do better for Os
haix
JIA YOUS ALL! final stretch le
come to think of it, i'll miss my class mates after Os
since im not expecting us to keep in touch
yeaps
byes~



Tuesday, September 1, 2009
what behind my shadow. 4:53 AM 」

Can someone teach me how do you overcome a fear that keeps coming back to chill your spine?



Friday, July 10, 2009
what behind my shadow. 6:32 AM 」

Thank you to the small girl i met on the street
and i feel sorry for you...
thanks anyway =)



Monday, June 1, 2009
what behind my shadow. 6:57 AM 」

hihi everyone
just had my O lvls chinese..
horrible
im going to screw it up, kinda expected that
haha
sometimes i wonder, alot of people want to know the "truth in life"
why are we here
why does this happen
why do problems come about
blahblahblah
and all those questions we ask ourselves
but how often do we look at children?
i mean
have you guys actually go and LOOK at how happily they smile
AND DO THEY GO ROUND ASKING STUPID QUESTIONS ABOUT TRUTH IN LIFE?
answer is
THEY DONT DAMN IT
sometimes, the saying "ignorance is bliss"
APPLIES
i mean
personally i rather live in a world of lies and never know the truth, yet be able to smile and live my life happily and fully
compared to knowing so much truth and facts that i get so miserable and sad with myself and people around me
why do u want to use more effort to find things that ain't going to make u happier, and on the contrary more upset?
i mean
why know the truth if hiding from it can make u happier
obviously i don't mean u hide from things like ur results or shit
but then again
worrying over something isn't going to make it disappear
thinking over something that is going to happen and still worrying over it
making urself even more worried by thinking even more
why?
i really dont understand why
it's fine to know facts abit here and there..
but
knowing so much
worrying so much
is just going to make urself miserable
and people around u miserable
why bother?
honestly?
i dont understand humans
somehow sometimes i think they are so easy to figure out
yet so freaking hard
maybe alot of people out there are thinking
"Samuel, you idiot, ignorant brat, blogging like u know alot about the world"
okay
fine, maybe i dont
BUT
do those kids that laugh ever so happily KNOW ANYTHING ABOUT THE WORLD?
they dont?
i still feel the key to happiness is to STOP THINKING SO MUCH
for GOODNESS SAKE
WOULD PEOPLE JUST STOP FREAKING OUT!?
i know the world's a terrible place
but not THAT bad right?
if only we were all kids again
i really wish i was back to a small boy
haha
those were the happy times
okay lah, enough of ranting, no one reads this anyway
just a personal thought
no offense to anyone what so ever
take care everyone
good night and have a nice day
Bye



Friday, May 1, 2009
what behind my shadow. 9:03 PM 」

BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED!
i know i seriously shouldnt be saying this now cuz it's exam period =.=
BUT
I'm so bored, and not because i have nothing to do, but more of because i DON'T want to have things to do.
i resorted to maple
now
how lame is that!?
hahahaha
im a lvl 27 pirate now in aquila~
YAY
HAHAHAHHAA
anyway
little things have been happening lately.
nothing interesting.
just realised how looks can be decieving.
and how some decent looking people
can end up being quite the contrary.
it's kind of true how things work.
just when you think u know the person very well
BOOM
you're wrong :D
hahahahahah!
okay
random thought =.=
next
i realised that, it's about a year since i gotten my phone.
and i realised that Alvin is exceptionally skillful at remembering dates =.=
anyway, common test is coming,
so is the Chinese O level Papers.
may everyone do well and score A1s :D
hahaha
once again
JIA YOU EVERYONE
this is the last year liao
ALL THE WAY!
haha
that's about all bah,
BYE FOLKS :D



Tuesday, March 31, 2009
what behind my shadow. 6:27 AM 」

YOYOYOYO!
hahaha
long time since i posted here, can't say im really busy.
more of lazy
haha
=) but im sure i'll be forgiven~ lalala~
hahahaha
anyway
enough of the haha's and shit
let's get straight to the point
*gives serious face*
I LOVE DARK CHOCOLATES!!!!!!!
lols
okay, nevermind =.= that was totally random and uncalled for.
haha
but i really really REALLY LOVE CHOCOLATES!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
random things that happened over the past few days.
went to rong jie's house with elton and bobby(chang rong) to do chinese project
and to realise my death =.= as the weather forecast man
basically, those idiots put me that cuz i had training =.=
and i have to get poured with water for that dumb role =.=
not that i mine la
but yea, i'll look stupid on film.
hopefully mediacorp sees my acting talent and recruits me :D
or not.
lols
i realised that i have hell lot of nicknames for chin boon
chin chin, boon boon, chinchilla, chinnychinny boonboon.
okay, maybe not alot =.=
brings me back to last year when i had more nicknames
haha
and it all started with Miss Goh (now mdm Goh) calling me sammy =.=
haha
hmm
many many memories..
sometimes i wonder, will we forget all the times we have with each other and all this would just be part of ur memory
hmm
nvm, im thinking too much =.=
been suicidal lately~
lols
i miss jack tan
LOLS random =.=
did i mention i love dark chocolates?
CHOCOLATES!
i have a feeling i sound like a girl (i'm very sure KC would comment on this =.= )
haha
to all the tags on my taggy
all i wanna say is
sorry for not updating la
for ur daily entertainment :D
haha
my famous quote stands =)
"life sucks, the end" - samuel lim
HAHAHAHA
okay la
maybe it doesn't suck
ups and downs bah
like sin and cos graphs..
hopefully not tangents =.=
didn't touch the piano much lately, getting kinda rusty~
and im super addicted to a PSP game called patapon 2~
pata pata pata pon *marches forward*
pon pon pata pon *whacks chin boon*
LOLS!
hahahahahahha
okay =.=
im crazy~
tmr is april fools day
hope it isnt too boring
or rather too interesting
hope everyone does well for O lvls
hope i do better than anyone else
LOLS
=.=
okay, im selfish, but who doesnt hope that =.=
KC dont come and be a idiot and tell me you dont hope that =.=
okay la
also nothing much to blog about
hope i ROD soon, then can rest from CCA
and concentrate on my studies..
Mum's running a flu, hope she gets well
dad as well
hope im not next
haha
everyone take care of ur health and drink lots of water~ haha
take care everyone!
until next time =)
BYE!



Wednesday, February 25, 2009
what behind my shadow. 4:06 AM 」

life sucks
the end



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